Hey everyone, I had absolutely no sleep last night due to some crazy nightmares. But I can remember them really vividly so I figured I would write about them this fine Friday morning. Some parts I cannot remember so yeah...
At first I was running from a Native American. It was somewhere in a forested area. I remember in the beginning I was bored and couldn't find anything to do in the little "town" which consisted of log cabins and a small bar. So I ventured off and he started chasing me. I had a large tomahawk and was chasing me. I kept running and looking back and he kept gaining. I remember yelling for help and no one hearing me. I was almost in to town, and was about to round a corner when he put me in a hostage like choke hold. I was so angry he had caught me, I was so close and no one wanted to help me. Then he took a huge gash out of my back and ran away. I remember feeling a sense of doom and this was one of the most disturbing parts. I remember hearing people coming, and I remember thinking "F*** this guy, I'm not going to let everyone see me this way." So I fell right on my back onto the ground, and I felt terrible. It felt like when you hadn't slept or ate in a few days, completely diminished of all energy. I remember thinking about dying, and what was going to happen. I am not religious at all, and therefore I know this was the end. When I think about him taking that cut out of my back, and how it felt, it still makes my back hurt. It felt so real, I can feel it now. I don't think I will be able to sleep for a few days. It was terrible.
Then everyone walked up, and my hands stopped working. I was just kind of sitting there, not being able to say anything or do anything. It was really uncomfortable, and then I woke up. (In the dream)
It was weeks later and the Native American guy was taking care of me. It was so weird. My back was patched up but I was still unable to really move. I remember him taking me on this sort of "hunt" thing and I was all alone in the woods. A bunch of wolves came around and one took a bite out of my hand. It was completely black, and I can still vividly remember its teeth and those dilated pupils. I had some kind of guns but they were almost toys, so terrible a shot at point blank missed. I tried to load the gun again but was so nervous I just dropped them. I remember-this part is sad, I remember grabbing the wolf and taking it out with my hands. It disturbs me to think of it now. It really does. After I killed it I remember just laying down and crying, calling out the Native American guys name. I remember he had one, but I don't remember what it was. He eventually made his way over to me after a while and we went back to this hut thing.
At this point I woke up before school today really disturbed. I have no idea if this is some kind of symbolization or something. I just wanted to get it off my mind and see what anyone thought of it.
Thanks
C
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